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𝘨𝘳𝘒𝘺𝘴𝘰𝘯 ([personal profile] farcry) wrote2020-08-22 08:09 pm
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-08 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
[He wants to stay at Dick's side so badly. He's scared to leave Dick's side. But he also loves him with everything he's got and he wants what's best for him. He loves Dick, so he needs to let him go. He gets that.

Dick's 'maybe' is surprising, though and it sparks a little hope in Jason. Maybe Dick feels connected to him even now, even just a little bit. It's something he can hope for at least.

He nods, glad for it. When the can stops, Dick pays before Jason can even reach for his wallet, so he's out of the car and moving over to the other side to help Dick out.

He curls his arms around him and keeps him steady as his strong arms hold up whatever weight Dick puts on him. Jason's changed a lot in that way too. He could probably put muscle Dick at this point.
]

Almost there, and then you can rest.

[He undoes the security easily and lets them inside, turning the lights on so they can move around. Dick will definitely see some of his things laying around, almost like he lives here too. That's how it's been, really. Dick has been around a lot.]

Wanna sit, or lay down?
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-08 03:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's definitely lived in, with both Jason's things and some of Dick's. Maybe he'll recognize some of his own belongings- hopefully. Jason wishes he had more here, to help spark some memories, but this really is still kind of new.

Jason nods, helping Dick to the couch, maneuvering him carefully as he sits him down. He goes to the kitchen area to grab a glass of water and brings it back to Dick, sitting on the coffee table in front of him.
]

About a month. Does any of it feel familiar?
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-08 06:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[ A month isn't a long time, no. But it's long for them. They spent three months together at the Tower when he was first there, but they weren't really together at all. This month has been something different entirely, and Jason wants to hold on to it with everything he's got- especially if he might have to let go. He doesn't want to go there, yet.

He wants to hold on to the glimmer of hope he feels when Dick looks around, taking it all in, and nods. That small motion brings a small smile to Jason's face. The first one all night. It's something. A big something. The memories aren't completely gone.]


Yeah. That's right. You came over late one night- I fell asleep on the couch waiting for you. I didn't wanna go to bed just yet. You ended up just laying down with me right here cause you said I looked too comfortable to move.
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-08 07:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ At those words, a fog lifts from Jason too. His puffy, red rimmed eyes brighten and his smile grows a little more. He remembers. ]

I woke up as soon as you laid down and tugged you under the blanket. We slept like that till morning.

[He turns his face into Dick's hand, kissing his fingers lightly. He's so fucking overjoyed that Dick remembers. He wants to throw his arms around the older man and hug him so tight, but god, this gentle touch feels too good to move out of.]

Sorry about your arm.
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-08 08:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ This feels almost too good to be true. Like a dream he might soon wake up from. It feels like they're Dick and Jason again, before the accident. Sitting here talking and flirting, and touching.

It's easy to see just how much Jason reacts to Dick's touch- his heart beat speeding up, a warmness in his gaze, the slight flutter of his lashes when Dick curls his fingers around his neck, along with the goosebumps that raise across his skin.

There's even the very slightest hint of a blush now, when Dick asks what they did in the morning.]


Ah-- well. We made love and then I made you breakfast. The fluffiest eggs you've ever had.
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-08 08:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's a beautiful moment where everything feels like it's gonna be ok once again, Jason so happily leaning into that touch. He knows it's just a moment though, so he soaks it all in. The shift in Dick's expression pains his heart, but he knows it's coming. ]

Yeah--

[He almost says sorry, but he knows he has nothing to apologize for. Not when it comes to that. He doesn't want Dick to pull his hand away just yet, so he lifts his own, place it over Dick's hand, letting his thumb run back and forth along his skin. ]

We were that close. I know it's gotta be weird, hearing it. Knowing it, but not remembering it. But-- you can feel it, right? That closeness. A little bit?
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-08 09:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Jason doesn't really react that way, though. The warmth stays in his eyes, because it's still Dick in front of him, and he remembers, even if it's just a little bit. It's more than he could have even asked for, in this short amount of time.

He's far from disappointed, and maybe the reaction Dick sees is all in his head, because Jason's still looking at him like he's everything-- even if Dick looks away, looking disappointed himself. ]


Hey, it's ok. You remembered something. That's huge. Give it time, ok?

[He sees the frustration, the tenseness that settles back around Dick. He lets his thumb run back and forth one more time before he lifts his hand so Dick can move it away- Jason knows he wants to.]

Sure. I'll grab your laptop. Is it ok if I just hang out here, though? I can stay quiet, promise. I don't think I can sleep right now.
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-09 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's not a glowing endorsement for Jason to stay, but it's good enough for now. Jason figures if this is his only time with Dick before he goes back to the Tower for good, he doesn't want to waste it. He wants to stay close for as long as he can. He doesn't think it'll bother Dick. At least, he hopes not.

The tense smile is noted, so he figures he shouldn't stay too close. Just on the periphery. Just like he was before. Kind of orbiting Dick in some way, but never too close.

Rachel's words still ring in his head.

He tries to shove them away, moving forward to grab Dick's laptop to hand it over to him, then settles on the couch, not in the spot right next to him, but on the other side- stretching out a little. ]


This ok?
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-09 05:24 am (UTC)(link)
[It all feels so familiar to him, but he can tell how impersonal it feels for Dick. He tries not to let it get to him though. It'll take time. Maybe Dick will remember something again, if they settle into how they've been while spending time here.

He gives Dick a small smile too, then tries to relax like he had before. Dick would be happy to know that they really did sit in comfortable silence, doing their own thing.

Even with all this, he can't hold back the soft laugh, when Dick tells him to close his eyes. Even with his attention on the screen he's aware of Jason, and that's how it was before, too. It's familiar. It's nice.
]

Okay, okay. Closing my eyes.

[And he actually does, stretching one leg out a little more to press against Dick's leg. Just a little contact to help him calm his mind.]
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[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-09 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
[ Jason does his best to settle down, to settle into this. It helps incredibly when he can feel Dick settling down too- calming down to do his work, like he's done before.

Eventually Jason does doze off, feeling comfortable enough now that they're both just here. He doens't want to waste any of his time with Dick, but he's exhausted.

Eventually he does stir though, glancing over at Dick. For a moment it feels like nothing has changed at all, and he wants to stay with that feeling so badly. He smiles softly, sitting up to move the laptop onto the coffee table, then pulls the blanket down around Dick. Maybe he should move him to the bedroom, but he's worried that if he does, Dick won't want to sleep again. Instead he settles in against his side and closes his eyes once again, pulling the blanket around both of them. ]
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Definitely not wrap, they still have so much to go ;__; we can ff them to waking up though?

[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-09 08:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's easy to fall asleep like this. So much easier, it's almost maddening. Jason's never been good at sleeping, all his life, and then especially after the nightmares increased- but being with Dick, it always helps.

So he falls asleep as well, wishing that when they wake up, things could go back to the way they were before today, but knowing deep down they won't be.]
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<3

[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-09 09:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Jason stirs easily once Dick lets out that curse- as quiet as it is, Jason's the lightest of sleepers, even in exhaustion.

They've woken together on the couch like this before, so for a moment he forgets. He tilts his head, nuzzling into Dick's shoulder for a moment- sleeping words leaving his lips. ]


....Mmmnyou okay?

[And then, with those words, he remembers, his head lifting up quickly from Dick's shoulder to look at him, brows pinches just slightly.]

Shit- how are you feeling?
nomorefear: (s4-44)

hopefully good busy!

[personal profile] nomorefear 2024-03-11 06:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[Jason catches that look. Breathless, wide eyed, concerned. His eyebrows go up a little- questioning and wondering.]

I think we slept all night.

[He wonders, if in the way he remembered that they weren't back where they were before this, if Dick rememebered something from before.]

....You remember something?

Omg that sounds fantastic!

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it's all good <3

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xD

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yeah it's good!

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yeah ;____;

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