[ Jason tried as best he could. He really did. He only broke down when Rachel attacked him with her powers- wanted to kill him, really, and then all hell broke loose. They were kids though, and Jason had so much he wanted to prove to everyone around him. He hated himself so much. He's never stopped hating himself.
He's been trying now too though. So fucking much. He knows he shouldn't hinge everything on Dick and they both swore he wouldn't, but right now it really does feel like it. Rachel's right. He feels like he's alone, and what happened to Dick took away the only thing he was here for.]
Yeah... I'm sure that's where he'll wanna go.
[Cause he doesn't remember the place they're staying in together- or where Dick was visiting. Whatever it is. Jason feels like he won't see Dick once he leaves the hospital, and his heart squeezes again.]
I told him he needs to stay here longer so they can make sure he's alright. Check over everything- especially his memory. I know he's gonna wanna bolt outta here first chance he gets, though.
[Rachel brings up his place, and he shrugs.]
I don't think he's gonna wanna do that. It's ok. He should be where he's comfortable. He's gotta heal up. I'll just...
[he shrugs again, that lost look settling back on his face.]
I don't wanna make things worse. I don't wanna upset him. The last thing he remembers is from before we were really on speaking terms again, so-- I don't wanna make it weird.
[ to this day, when sheās not in the right mind space, her powers still slip out of her fingers, acting in unpredictable ways. ever since she got them back, sheās been trying harder to understand how to better control them. back then, her powers would bleed out of her whenever she loosened her grip, and Jasonās taunting made her lose that grip more than anything. but they were both so lost, both hated themselves, both so scared of what they were, so desperate to belong to something that she sometimes wonders if thatās why she hated him so much. because of what he brought out in her.
but now she sees him in a different light. Dick would speak so fondly of Jason, and would get this warmth in his eyes, a mix of pride and adoration. finally, sheās staring to understand where it all came from.
but shock parts her lips when Jason says the last thing Dick remembers is from that far back. that would have been shortly after Red Hood helped them with Crane, it would have been before Dick really started trying to heal the team and trying with Jason again. ]
That longā¦? [ she frowns, looking back at the emergency departmentās doors, worry pinching between her brows. thatās a long time to be forgetting. everything that happened with Sebastian, all those bonding moments they had in the RV, the way Tim trained, everything Conner went throughā¦ Rachel tears up a little thinking about it. ]
Maybe we should tell him he needs to stay here. Conner and Kory arenāt here, so itās just me, Tim, and Gar at the tower and I donāt know how Dick will be with just usā¦ [ thatās also what Jason seems to want, too. she looks at him again, a sadness held in her eyes. ]
Iāll get him whatever he wants from the tower. And you can see him here if heās okay with it. Stay by his side. Just like you said you would. [ a tiny, sad smile. ] Okay?
[ Rachelās smile fades when Jason confirms her suspicion, that Dick wouldnāt want to stay here anyway. maybe itās naive of her to want to fix this, thinking that if she could persuade Dick to stay then at least some of the hurt sheād caused Jason could be redeemed.
but of course itās not that easy. ]
Okay. [ she nods. ] I should probablyāGarās waiting. Timās really worried too. Would you text me how heās doing?
[ Rachel hesitates, looking down at her phone, then back at Jason. she shakes her head. ]
Iām not really sure. [ she doesnāt know how Dick and Jason mended their relationship, and she isnāt sure how Dick feels about Jason right now, but she can see the fear in Jasonās expression. ]
Want me to stay with you? I wasnāt going to leave for too long.
[He's scared. He's scared of a lot of things right now. Mostly that Dick won't want him here anymore, but also that he's gonna fall off the deep end again.
That part isn't anyone's problem but his own-- but he can hear Dick's voice in his head, telling him he can do this. Don't give up. They've got this.]
No, it's -- it's ok. Hopefully he's sleeping. I can just sit there with him.
[ Jason sounds as unsure as she feels. suddenly, it's like they have to stand on their own. before, Dick would catch her in any situation. Dick would have an answer and a plan and always stay strong, no matter what.
but what about now? ]
Text me, okay? You're not alone in this. I'm here. And everyone else, too. [ a beat, as Rachel questions whether it's her place to say anything more. ] We have to be strong for him now.
[Rachel may feel unsure, but her words are important. They help, because really, that's what Jason needs to hear.
Are they true? He's not completely sure if they are-- if he really isn't alone in this. But in this moment they help. And she's right. They need to be strong for him. He's the one who needs them now.]
Okay... you're right. We have to be. Thanks, Rachel.
[ when Jason thanks her, her smile is small and sad. she doesn't think there's anything to thank her for. she wonders if she did all this, somehow willed reality into something bad happening. ]
Yeah. [ she turns away before Jason can see her cry again. ]
[He's not really the kind of person who goes around just thanking people, so he hopes she knows he really means it.
There's a part of him that wants to hug her, but he doesn't think he should. Gar is more equipped for something like that, so he's glad she'll get to see him soon.]
I'm gonna go back inside to talk to the doctor. I'll text you.
[He doesn't know what else to say. Finally he does reach out to squeeze her shoulder, then turns around and heads back inside so he can find Dick's doctor and ask her when Dick will be discharged. He tells her about the memory loss as well, and what can we done about any of it.]
[ when Jason's hand finds Rachel's shoulder, she finally looks back up. she gives him a teary-eyed nod when he promises to text her. the thing is, she doesn't want to leave Dick either. knowing he's lost a whole years' worth of memories is scary to her too, but she has to go back to the tower and fill the others in. she knows that the last thing Dick would want is for the team to suffer because of what happened to him. ]
Okay... thanks, Jason. [ feels like the right thing would be to reach out and hug him, but she doesn't know how he would react to that. so she just stands there and watches him leave. finally, once she's gathered herself enough, she calls an uber to head back to the tower. ]
[ Jason doesn't have to wait long to speak to the doctor, as she's standing at the nurses' station, going over Dick's charts. she seems to be puzzling over something as she reads the pages, brows knitted in concentration when Jason steps up beside her.
putting the charts down, she smiles at him, listening intently to his questions. when asked about the memory loss, she nods understandingly, giving Jason a small, but hopeful smile. ]
The memory loss is normal, especially after a concussive event like the one Dick had just undergone. [ she confirms that a year is a long time to have forgotten. there are a host of exercises that could help with restoring memories. she briefly tells Jason about some of them, including looking for triggers or reminders, or asking Dick to chain events that he does remember together by moving forward or backwards while recalling them. she says that it helps to have familiar people recount events to him, to see if any of it will jog something up. ]
Most importantly, he needs to rest. The good news is, he seems to be recovering quickly. Faster than normal, really. [ she's looking back at his charts. strange that they don't have his full medical information on file, though. there are fractures in his body picked up by the latest set of x-rays that seemingly had been treated outside of the medical system. ] We'd like to keep him under observation for at least another twenty-four hours, at which point we'll reassess how he's healing up. The memory loss should get better within a few weeks. He doesn't have to be in the hospital for that, but it's hard to say if it'll ever be perfectly recalled.
[It feels like more good news than bad news. Maybe his memory won't ever be perfectly recalled, but there are things they can do to help. Maybe knowing that Jason can help with giving Dick things to remember, they'll be ok with him being around - and Dick might be ok with it too.
Jason listens to it all intently while also reading over Dick's chart in the sneaky way that he does. Most of it is expected, and he's relieved when the doctor looks puzzled over how much quicker Dick seems to be healing up than normal. That means maybe the pit's magic has stayed with him too.]
Thanks, doc. I'll make sure he rests. I know he's gonna wanna get outta here sooner than 24 hours but I'll make sure he stays out, too.
[A little heads up on Dick Grayson, the flight risk. Jason doesn't want to fuck around with that this time. He's also subtly letting them know that he's absolutely staying here for those 24 hours, so don't even try kicking him out.
He feels like, with that determination, he's finally able to pull himself together a little more. He thanks the doctor again, then quietly heads into Dick's room once again, hoping that he's sleeping.]
[ the doctor gives Jason a nod when he vows to keep Dick grounded here for the next 24 hours. most people don't like staying in the hospital for long, so it's not anything new for her. Dick has broken bones, too, so she doubts he'll be able to be a real flight risk. she's also okay with Jason staying around for as long as Dick is here. it's better for most patients to have someone familiar near by than to have a stranger like a nurse sit at their bedside to keep them company.
Dick looks up when Jason enters his room. of course he's not asleep, but at least he's still in the bed? he's been out for the past seven hours. it's the most he's slept in a single stretch in a long time.
though he keeps his expression carefully neutral, it's clear that he had been in deep focus. he's still gripping his phone with one hand, but the screen goes black with a click of a single button. on his bedside, there's a glass of water and a half eaten slice of plain toast on a tray. nearby, a clear container with a slice of chocolate cake still sits untouched where Rachel had left it. ]
Hey. [ he greets calmly, giving Jason a slow once-over. people fussing over him when he gets injured is nothing new, though he recognizes that understanding the concern clearly written on Jason's face is still only just a logical one. he knows Jason's concerned about him because they're together. were together? how does he even begin to navigate that?
he doesn't know how Jason has changed in the past year, but once again, he has to believe in his own past decisions, even if he doesn't remember them. thinking about the void of the past year guts him, but he breathes through it. he has to start small, has to build on what he does know of their relationship.
Jason did some bad things. Jason murdered half of Gotham, but in the end, helped them bring it back. he didn't treat Jason how he should have, either. afterwards, Red Hood dropped off his radar for at least two weeks. is Red Hood still around? has Gotham recovered? the questions keep whirring around in his mind as his gaze lifts back up to Jason's face. he tries for a tense smile, tipping his head toward the bedside table. ]
Don't look so worried. You didn't miss much. They brought in some dry toast when you were gone.
(( ooc: ok sorry i had to retcon Rachel leaving the a slice of chocolate cake there ;; ))
[ The doctor doesn't know how much of a flight risk Dick really is- no matter how many broken bones he has, he'd find a way out of there. Jason won't let that happen.]
Hey.
[He tries to say as casually when he heads back inside. Of course Dick isn't asleep. Jason had only been hoping that because of all the pain meds he'd easily knock out. It's not just worry he's feeling when he sees Dick awake- it's nerves. It feels like that time all over again, when Dick found him after he came back from the dead, and asked him for help. The time when Dick told Jason that he could never be a Titan again, but he could start on the path of redemption if he helped them. That was a year ago, just about. So much has happened since then.
It feels devastating all over again, but he knows it must feel the same for Dick, not even knowing what happened all this time. Since coming back from the dead, Jason has a few gaps in his memory as well, so he knows how fucked up it feels. This is ten times worse. ]
That's it? I might have to sneak you in some pizza. The real kind.
[He notes the look on Dick's face, the way he does a once over on him. Jason wonders what he must be thinking. How he must be feeling. He also notices the phone in Dick's hand. Was he reading over texts? Listening to voicemails? Did he read the hundreds of things they've said to each other over all this time, confirming Jason's words? Does he know they're in love? ....were in love. Is it a past tense thing now? Jason swallows that thought down thickly, and moves over to the bed to check out the toast. It's pretty lame. The chocolate cake looks more appetizing, though and he lifts up the container.]
I don't know. [ Dick looks at the chocolate cake skeptically. truthfully, he doesn't have an appetite. the few bites of toast was only managed because he knows he has to eat to recover.
his mind is still lingering on the texts he's been catching up on. he hasn't had much time since Jason stepped out of his room, but what he has read starts to flesh out the weeks leading up to his memory loss. Kory is out of town tracing down something Tamaran related, he doesn't know what yet. Conner seems to be asking him about something Metropolis related. Rachel and Gar have been protesting cauliflower crust. Tim, texting about suit upgrades.
and Jason. he and Jason have been meeting up at bars and taking shots together, and for some reason, he doesn't want Jason helping out with thugs. the night of his accident, Jason tried to take a flight back to Gotham, and he seemed to be very much against it. his last outgoing call was to Jason's number, so that much checks out. still, it's just that. checking out information. none of it feels like real memories, associated with emotions, but rather like reading sterile case files or debriefings of events that happened to someone else. ]
I'd rather have Alfred's pancakes. [ an impossibility at this point, hence why he says it. ] You should have it. Bet you haven't eaten much.
[ he has to stay calm, but he's itching to get back to his records. ] So are they discharging me soon, or are we breaking out of here?
[ He sets the cake aside, not having anything of an appetite either. He could still use that drink or two, though.
And Jason's texts-- they span back to far more than that, but maybe he can go through them all later. Maybe it's better if Jason tells him instead. It's hard to know where to even start, but the doctor said it would be helpful. He just has to figure it out and not overwhelm Dick with it.
He knows how fucking overwhelming he can be. ]
You gotta stay for a 24 hour observation, and then we can go. Or-- you can go. You know how much I love a good break out, but not this time.
[He sighs, plopping himself down in the chair that's he's had pretty much almost on top of the bed it's so close, and he doesn't really want to move it further back. If he can't climb in with Dick, and if it's too weird to keep holding his hand, at least he can sit close. He can sit close, and try to act calm, and have a normal conversation with Dick. He can try.]
Good news, though. You're healing up faster than normal. I told you about it once, when you were bandaging up the gash on my ass, that I healed up faster cause of the pit? Well, you've got it too. The doctor looked real fucking perplexed.
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im still annoyed that they dipped dick into the pit >>
[ Dick lifts his brows when Jason tells him he'll heal faster because of the pit. is that something he knows, or does he not know? because it's new information now. and bandaging up the gash on Jason's ass, that bit seems to bring up an image of Jason on his couch, though it feels dark and blurry. ]
How much faster? [ a tip of his head. ] 'Cus if it's at least some percentage then we should recalculate their 24 hour observation period. [ tension gathers around his eyes at being told no. ]
You know I'm not staying here, right?
ME TOO. So annoyed D: Especially cause that's such a Jason Todd thing and Dick got a montage instead
The doctor also said I should try and help fill in your memory gaps when it's not too overwhelming, so-- I know it feels like you don't know some of the information I'm telling you, but... you did, once. I'll always be honest with you about what you knew and what you didn't know, ok?
[ Not that Dick trusts him right now. Probably not at all, considering where they were at when Dick went back to Gotham to follow the weapons. Jason's pretty sure Dick only really started to trust him more when he saved his life that night. That had been the start of everything different between them, but Dick doesn't even remember that. Maybe he just thinks Jason's trying to feed him whatever information he wants to. It breaks his heart. ]
A little faster. Not like instant healing, Dick. Maybe we can recalculate their 24 hour period, yeah. But they still gotta come check you and be all fucking amazed that you're healing up nicely, ok? It's 24 hours.
[Jason tenses up at Dick starting to argue his way out of here, but he's gonna hold his ground.]
[ Dick appreciates the sentiment that Jason's approaching this with, that he's at least saying he'll be honest with telling Dick about past events. he wants to believe it, but he's torn inside, not knowing how much he can truly trust. he's always wanted to be a trusting person, but the decades of training has taught him to be skeptical, especially when he's scared.
and he's very scared right now, despite how calm he might seem on the outside. all he does is nod quietly to what Jason tells him. he'll keep track of what Jason tells him, and then go through whatever he can find to try and confirm the legitimacy of it all.
as strange as it is, the soothing, almost tender way Jason talks to him is--nice. it's hard not to feel anything and remain neutral but skeptical. but he does frown when Jason digs his heels in.
a beat. ]
You gonna stop me?
(( ooc: btw, i have a hard time with stacking scenes / dialogue unless its a text, so i tend to just have dick respond to the last bit so we can move linearly instead of jumping around. i just find it easier to write his introspection and emotions that way, so hes not frowning then smiling then angry all in one tag lol. just to let you know in case you ever find it strange that hes dropping convos lmfao ))
[ Maybe Rachel should have stayed after all. Dick right now is not the same Dick who would have done anything to be able to spend some extra time with Jason, or want to be alone in a room with him. That much is apparent, with every little look Dick gives. Maybe to other people he might seem calm on the outside, but Jason knows all the tells. He knows Dick.
That frown, the way Dick challenges him again, it makes all the hairs rise on the back of his neck. He doesn't want to fight. He hates this.]
...Dick. Come on. I don't want it to be like that. You were in a real serious crash. They had to induce a coma. You've got memory loss. Please.
[He hesitates, glancing away for a moment, letting out a shaky breath before looking back at Dick once again. He can do this.]
I wanted to stay here and be with you just a little while longer. But if you'd rather have Rachel here, I can ask her to come back. She can stay with you instead.
((ooc: oh, ok. But what if he needs to respond to the things Jason is saying? xD I don't care if he's smiling or angry all in one tag. That's how RP conversations usually are. But if it's harder for you that way, I don't want it to stress you out. I also don't want like, dialogue wasted, if you know what I mean?? I can try to just write shorter tags, then? Like one dialogue thing at a time? it would make things less linear I think, like the conversation would be choppy, but if it helps I don't mind!))
Itās not about you or Rachel. [ Jasonās rightāheās cracking at the seams, trying so hard to hold it together in his wretched place. the irritation is clear in his voice now. ]
Look, Jason, I appreciate that youāre here to help me remember. Really, I do. I believe you really care about me, too. The last thing I texted you was that I want to be with you so I know we were together. I wouldnāt say that otherwise. Justā
[ he reaches his hand out, remembering the way Jason felt, gripping him back, holding onto him like Dick could count on him for anything. ]
I need you to get me out of here. I have to go through my protocol for this. I have to remember. Help me.
(( ooc: oops forgot my note. but yes, I find people are either one or the other, stackers or non stackers lolol. ok I would appreciate like one convo topic at a time but honestly you know how convos go, where ppl jump around or mention stuff that was said in the past, thatās how I tend to have my characters respond to other topics they need toā¦ idk if that makes sense for you but letās give this a try!! tyty ))
Dick is good. Even with his memory loss it's like he knows exactly how to get to Jason. How to make him waver. It really is unfair.
Dick can probably see Jason's reservations start to crumble. His outstretched hand is something Jason can't ignore. Neither is that plea for Jason to help him. All he wants to do is help Dick. If the pit is helping him heal faster, he'll be alright. They've all dealt with countless bruises and broken bones before, and hardly ever went to the hospital for it. He can take care of Dick- if Dick will let him.
He slides his hand back into Dick's, fingers curling around his, holding onto him like Dick can count of him for anything. ]
[ it's almost too easy. Jason practically melts for him when he asks, reaching back for his hand and lacing their fingers together like he's done it a million times. for all Dick knows, he has. but how easily he crumbles is new. it's not the Jason that he knows, but he finds it surprisingly sweet. his fingers curl around Jason's in return.
finally, finally, a faint smile tugs on Dick's mouth with a breath of relief. ]
Okay. Let's do this while these pain meds are still kicked in. [ it's a little extreme to think of it that way, but he grips Jason's hand as he sits up, only wincing a little as the room spins before still, the entire right side of his body singing in protest. it's fine. Jason's right, they've had broken bones before. he relies on Jason as he swings his legs to the side of the bed, bracing against him as he stands. ]
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He's been trying now too though. So fucking much. He knows he shouldn't hinge everything on Dick and they both swore he wouldn't, but right now it really does feel like it. Rachel's right. He feels like he's alone, and what happened to Dick took away the only thing he was here for.]
Yeah... I'm sure that's where he'll wanna go.
[Cause he doesn't remember the place they're staying in together- or where Dick was visiting. Whatever it is. Jason feels like he won't see Dick once he leaves the hospital, and his heart squeezes again.]
I told him he needs to stay here longer so they can make sure he's alright. Check over everything- especially his memory. I know he's gonna wanna bolt outta here first chance he gets, though.
[Rachel brings up his place, and he shrugs.]
I don't think he's gonna wanna do that. It's ok. He should be where he's comfortable. He's gotta heal up. I'll just...
[he shrugs again, that lost look settling back on his face.]
I don't wanna make things worse. I don't wanna upset him. The last thing he remembers is from before we were really on speaking terms again, so-- I don't wanna make it weird.
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but now she sees him in a different light. Dick would speak so fondly of Jason, and would get this warmth in his eyes, a mix of pride and adoration. finally, sheās staring to understand where it all came from.
but shock parts her lips when Jason says the last thing Dick remembers is from that far back. that would have been shortly after Red Hood helped them with Crane, it would have been before Dick really started trying to heal the team and trying with Jason again. ]
That longā¦? [ she frowns, looking back at the emergency departmentās doors, worry pinching between her brows. thatās a long time to be forgetting. everything that happened with Sebastian, all those bonding moments they had in the RV, the way Tim trained, everything Conner went throughā¦ Rachel tears up a little thinking about it. ]
Maybe we should tell him he needs to stay here. Conner and Kory arenāt here, so itās just me, Tim, and Gar at the tower and I donāt know how Dick will be with just usā¦ [ thatās also what Jason seems to want, too. she looks at him again, a sadness held in her eyes. ]
Iāll get him whatever he wants from the tower. And you can see him here if heās okay with it. Stay by his side. Just like you said you would. [ a tiny, sad smile. ] Okay?
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[Jason says quietly, following Rachel's gaze back through those doors as well. So much has happened.
He lets out a shaky breath, watching Rachel. He knows this is so fucking hard for her too. This whole thing feels like the Twilight zone.]
I don't think he's gonna be ok with staying here that much longer. He's probably already trying to escape out the window.
[Jason knows, because he'd be doing the same and he knows how much they all hate laying around, especially in a hospital.
More than anything though, Jason wants to stay by his side.]
Okay. While he's here i'll stay. If he's ok with it.
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but of course itās not that easy. ]
Okay. [ she nods. ] I should probablyāGarās waiting. Timās really worried too. Would you text me how heās doing?
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You're leaving? ...Do you think he'll be ok with just me being here?
[He's scared. What if Dick isn't ok with that at all? What if he'd rather have anyone else here but him?]
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Iām not really sure. [ she doesnāt know how Dick and Jason mended their relationship, and she isnāt sure how Dick feels about Jason right now, but she can see the fear in Jasonās expression. ]
Want me to stay with you? I wasnāt going to leave for too long.
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That part isn't anyone's problem but his own-- but he can hear Dick's voice in his head, telling him he can do this. Don't give up. They've got this.]
No, it's -- it's ok. Hopefully he's sleeping. I can just sit there with him.
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but what about now? ]
Text me, okay? You're not alone in this. I'm here. And everyone else, too. [ a beat, as Rachel questions whether it's her place to say anything more. ] We have to be strong for him now.
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Are they true? He's not completely sure if they are-- if he really isn't alone in this. But in this moment they help. And she's right. They need to be strong for him. He's the one who needs them now.]
Okay... you're right. We have to be. Thanks, Rachel.
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Yeah. [ she turns away before Jason can see her cry again. ]
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There's a part of him that wants to hug her, but he doesn't think he should. Gar is more equipped for something like that, so he's glad she'll get to see him soon.]
I'm gonna go back inside to talk to the doctor. I'll text you.
[He doesn't know what else to say. Finally he does reach out to squeeze her shoulder, then turns around and heads back inside so he can find Dick's doctor and ask her when Dick will be discharged. He tells her about the memory loss as well, and what can we done about any of it.]
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Okay... thanks, Jason. [ feels like the right thing would be to reach out and hug him, but she doesn't know how he would react to that. so she just stands there and watches him leave. finally, once she's gathered herself enough, she calls an uber to head back to the tower. ]
2/2 -- sorry for the delay, i got distracted :,)
putting the charts down, she smiles at him, listening intently to his questions. when asked about the memory loss, she nods understandingly, giving Jason a small, but hopeful smile. ]
The memory loss is normal, especially after a concussive event like the one Dick had just undergone. [ she confirms that a year is a long time to have forgotten. there are a host of exercises that could help with restoring memories. she briefly tells Jason about some of them, including looking for triggers or reminders, or asking Dick to chain events that he does remember together by moving forward or backwards while recalling them. she says that it helps to have familiar people recount events to him, to see if any of it will jog something up. ]
Most importantly, he needs to rest. The good news is, he seems to be recovering quickly. Faster than normal, really. [ she's looking back at his charts. strange that they don't have his full medical information on file, though. there are fractures in his body picked up by the latest set of x-rays that seemingly had been treated outside of the medical system. ] We'd like to keep him under observation for at least another twenty-four hours, at which point we'll reassess how he's healing up. The memory loss should get better within a few weeks. He doesn't have to be in the hospital for that, but it's hard to say if it'll ever be perfectly recalled.
Lol it's ok š
Jason listens to it all intently while also reading over Dick's chart in the sneaky way that he does. Most of it is expected, and he's relieved when the doctor looks puzzled over how much quicker Dick seems to be healing up than normal. That means maybe the pit's magic has stayed with him too.]
Thanks, doc. I'll make sure he rests. I know he's gonna wanna get outta here sooner than 24 hours but I'll make sure he stays out, too.
[A little heads up on Dick Grayson, the flight risk. Jason doesn't want to fuck around with that this time. He's also subtly letting them know that he's absolutely staying here for those 24 hours, so don't even try kicking him out.
He feels like, with that determination, he's finally able to pull himself together a little more. He thanks the doctor again, then quietly heads into Dick's room once again, hoping that he's sleeping.]
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Dick looks up when Jason enters his room. of course he's not asleep, but at least he's still in the bed? he's been out for the past seven hours. it's the most he's slept in a single stretch in a long time.
though he keeps his expression carefully neutral, it's clear that he had been in deep focus. he's still gripping his phone with one hand, but the screen goes black with a click of a single button. on his bedside, there's a glass of water and a half eaten slice of plain toast on a tray. nearby, a clear container with a slice of chocolate cake still sits untouched where Rachel had left it. ]
Hey. [ he greets calmly, giving Jason a slow once-over. people fussing over him when he gets injured is nothing new, though he recognizes that understanding the concern clearly written on Jason's face is still only just a logical one. he knows Jason's concerned about him because they're together. were together? how does he even begin to navigate that?
he doesn't know how Jason has changed in the past year, but once again, he has to believe in his own past decisions, even if he doesn't remember them. thinking about the void of the past year guts him, but he breathes through it. he has to start small, has to build on what he does know of their relationship.
Jason did some bad things. Jason murdered half of Gotham, but in the end, helped them bring it back. he didn't treat Jason how he should have, either. afterwards, Red Hood dropped off his radar for at least two weeks. is Red Hood still around? has Gotham recovered? the questions keep whirring around in his mind as his gaze lifts back up to Jason's face. he tries for a tense smile, tipping his head toward the bedside table. ]
Don't look so worried. You didn't miss much. They brought in some dry toast when you were gone.
(( ooc: ok sorry i had to retcon Rachel leaving the a slice of chocolate cake there ;; ))
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Hey.
[He tries to say as casually when he heads back inside. Of course Dick isn't asleep. Jason had only been hoping that because of all the pain meds he'd easily knock out. It's not just worry he's feeling when he sees Dick awake- it's nerves. It feels like that time all over again, when Dick found him after he came back from the dead, and asked him for help. The time when Dick told Jason that he could never be a Titan again, but he could start on the path of redemption if he helped them. That was a year ago, just about. So much has happened since then.
It feels devastating all over again, but he knows it must feel the same for Dick, not even knowing what happened all this time. Since coming back from the dead, Jason has a few gaps in his memory as well, so he knows how fucked up it feels. This is ten times worse. ]
That's it? I might have to sneak you in some pizza. The real kind.
[He notes the look on Dick's face, the way he does a once over on him. Jason wonders what he must be thinking. How he must be feeling. He also notices the phone in Dick's hand. Was he reading over texts? Listening to voicemails? Did he read the hundreds of things they've said to each other over all this time, confirming Jason's words? Does he know they're in love? ....were in love. Is it a past tense thing now? Jason swallows that thought down thickly, and moves over to the bed to check out the toast. It's pretty lame. The chocolate cake looks more appetizing, though and he lifts up the container.]
What about this?
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his mind is still lingering on the texts he's been catching up on. he hasn't had much time since Jason stepped out of his room, but what he has read starts to flesh out the weeks leading up to his memory loss. Kory is out of town tracing down something Tamaran related, he doesn't know what yet. Conner seems to be asking him about something Metropolis related. Rachel and Gar have been protesting cauliflower crust. Tim, texting about suit upgrades.
and Jason. he and Jason have been meeting up at bars and taking shots together, and for some reason, he doesn't want Jason helping out with thugs. the night of his accident, Jason tried to take a flight back to Gotham, and he seemed to be very much against it. his last outgoing call was to Jason's number, so that much checks out. still, it's just that. checking out information. none of it feels like real memories, associated with emotions, but rather like reading sterile case files or debriefings of events that happened to someone else. ]
I'd rather have Alfred's pancakes. [ an impossibility at this point, hence why he says it. ] You should have it. Bet you haven't eaten much.
[ he has to stay calm, but he's itching to get back to his records. ] So are they discharging me soon, or are we breaking out of here?
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[ He sets the cake aside, not having anything of an appetite either. He could still use that drink or two, though.
And Jason's texts-- they span back to far more than that, but maybe he can go through them all later. Maybe it's better if Jason tells him instead. It's hard to know where to even start, but the doctor said it would be helpful. He just has to figure it out and not overwhelm Dick with it.
He knows how fucking overwhelming he can be. ]
You gotta stay for a 24 hour observation, and then we can go. Or-- you can go. You know how much I love a good break out, but not this time.
[He sighs, plopping himself down in the chair that's he's had pretty much almost on top of the bed it's so close, and he doesn't really want to move it further back. If he can't climb in with Dick, and if it's too weird to keep holding his hand, at least he can sit close. He can sit close, and try to act calm, and have a normal conversation with Dick. He can try.]
Good news, though. You're healing up faster than normal. I told you about it once, when you were bandaging up the gash on my ass, that I healed up faster cause of the pit? Well, you've got it too. The doctor looked real fucking perplexed.
im still annoyed that they dipped dick into the pit >>
How much faster? [ a tip of his head. ] 'Cus if it's at least some percentage then we should recalculate their 24 hour observation period. [ tension gathers around his eyes at being told no. ]
You know I'm not staying here, right?
ME TOO. So annoyed D: Especially cause that's such a Jason Todd thing and Dick got a montage instead
[ Not that Dick trusts him right now. Probably not at all, considering where they were at when Dick went back to Gotham to follow the weapons. Jason's pretty sure Dick only really started to trust him more when he saved his life that night. That had been the start of everything different between them, but Dick doesn't even remember that. Maybe he just thinks Jason's trying to feed him whatever information he wants to. It breaks his heart. ]
A little faster. Not like instant healing, Dick. Maybe we can recalculate their 24 hour period, yeah. But they still gotta come check you and be all fucking amazed that you're healing up nicely, ok? It's 24 hours.
[Jason tenses up at Dick starting to argue his way out of here, but he's gonna hold his ground.]
You are.
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and he's very scared right now, despite how calm he might seem on the outside. all he does is nod quietly to what Jason tells him. he'll keep track of what Jason tells him, and then go through whatever he can find to try and confirm the legitimacy of it all.
as strange as it is, the soothing, almost tender way Jason talks to him is--nice. it's hard not to feel anything and remain neutral but skeptical. but he does frown when Jason digs his heels in.
a beat. ]
You gonna stop me?
(( ooc: btw, i have a hard time with stacking scenes / dialogue unless its a text, so i tend to just have dick respond to the last bit so we can move linearly instead of jumping around. i just find it easier to write his introspection and emotions that way, so hes not frowning then smiling then angry all in one tag lol. just to let you know in case you ever find it strange that hes dropping convos lmfao ))
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That frown, the way Dick challenges him again, it makes all the hairs rise on the back of his neck. He doesn't want to fight. He hates this.]
...Dick. Come on. I don't want it to be like that. You were in a real serious crash. They had to induce a coma. You've got memory loss. Please.
[He hesitates, glancing away for a moment, letting out a shaky breath before looking back at Dick once again. He can do this.]
I wanted to stay here and be with you just a little while longer. But if you'd rather have Rachel here, I can ask her to come back. She can stay with you instead.
((ooc: oh, ok. But what if he needs to respond to the things Jason is saying? xD I don't care if he's smiling or angry all in one tag. That's how RP conversations usually are. But if it's harder for you that way, I don't want it to stress you out. I also don't want like, dialogue wasted, if you know what I mean?? I can try to just write shorter tags, then? Like one dialogue thing at a time? it would make things less linear I think, like the conversation would be choppy, but if it helps I don't mind!))
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Look, Jason, I appreciate that youāre here to help me remember. Really, I do. I believe you really care about me, too. The last thing I texted you was that I want to be with you so I know we were together. I wouldnāt say that otherwise. Justā
[ he reaches his hand out, remembering the way Jason felt, gripping him back, holding onto him like Dick could count on him for anything. ]
I need you to get me out of here. I have to go through my protocol for this. I have to remember. Help me.
(( ooc: oops forgot my note. but yes, I find people are either one or the other, stackers or non stackers lolol. ok I would appreciate like one convo topic at a time but honestly you know how convos go, where ppl jump around or mention stuff that was said in the past, thatās how I tend to have my characters respond to other topics they need toā¦ idk if that makes sense for you but letās give this a try!! tyty ))
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Dick is good. Even with his memory loss it's like he knows exactly how to get to Jason. How to make him waver. It really is unfair.
Dick can probably see Jason's reservations start to crumble. His outstretched hand is something Jason can't ignore. Neither is that plea for Jason to help him. All he wants to do is help Dick. If the pit is helping him heal faster, he'll be alright. They've all dealt with countless bruises and broken bones before, and hardly ever went to the hospital for it. He can take care of Dick- if Dick will let him.
He slides his hand back into Dick's, fingers curling around his, holding onto him like Dick can count of him for anything. ]
Alright. Okay. I'll get you outta here.
((ooc: sounds good! I'll do my best :D ))
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finally, finally, a faint smile tugs on Dick's mouth with a breath of relief. ]
Okay. Let's do this while these pain meds are still kicked in. [ it's a little extreme to think of it that way, but he grips Jason's hand as he sits up, only wincing a little as the room spins before still, the entire right side of his body singing in protest. it's fine. Jason's right, they've had broken bones before. he relies on Jason as he swings his legs to the side of the bed, bracing against him as he stands. ]
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Should we wrap or ff this one? :)
Definitely not wrap, they still have so much to go ;__; we can ff them to waking up though?
yaaa
<3
phew busy weekend
hopefully good busy!
yesss an amazing bottomless brunch and long hike in the snow c:
Omg that sounds fantastic!
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omg jasonnn so cuteee ahhhhh šššš„ŗ
Ugh he issss. They're both cute š„ŗ
they are š„ŗ
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am sorry for dropping off the face of the earth
it's all good <3
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ooc: Alfred's dead in Titans D: Unless. you wanna play that he's still alive? xD
NOPE, he should stay dead SORRY I FORGOT
xD
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ok lmk if this is a good amount of ff!
yeah it's good!
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Shall we wrap?! :)))
yeah ;____;